Letting Go, Being Let Go and The Pivotal P’s
Much like the big O, letting go and being let go doesn’t often or necessarily happen simultaneously. And while things can get messy without the whole truth factor being present and accounted for, letting go and being let go at some point in our lives becomes inevitable.
In my life the inevitable happened about one month ago. In actuality, today marks five weeks since I was led into a small room without a window, under the guise of an impromptu departmental meeting and informed that my position was being “phased out.” It’s taken all of these five weeks to make peace with the movements and the dealings of that unceremonious day. It’s taken every ounce of who I’ve always known I was to come to a measure of grace.
Today is a good day. Today is a very good day for letting go. I am not the first to be laid off. And although I did not know it at the time, I was not the only one that day who was told in some form or fashion that for reasons, which still aren’t quite clear, that this particular professional relationship was over.
Letting go or being let go you see applies itself to any power relationship, whether in the professional or the personal realm. I subscribe to the idea that the personal is ever political and I also think the same may be said for the the relationship between the professional and the personal, at least as it applies to me.
For the past 4 and 1/2 years, I had been gainfully employed as a Researcher at a conservative non-profit. I had my 15-second introduction down-pat, and it had everything to do with finding foundations with the “heart” and “capacity” to “partner” with our mission. I was was too comfortable in that position. Too comfortable in a place and time where the transferable skills that placed me in that hot seat for the longest job stint I had held in my life were now irrelevant to the bottom line.
I lost and found myself at this job and in this position and I don’t despise any of it. If the trick was playing the role, while a little rebelliously merging the personal with the professional; then the treat was and is discovering my calling, my authentic self, my authentic voice, where there is no equivocation and no cause for starched to perfection poise or fashionista tendencies unless I wake up on that side of the bed.
Truth be told, they stole my thunder. And it serves me right. LOL. I wanted to be the one to say ‘when’. I had been coming to ‘when’ for two years. So you see the curve ball. Letting go or being let go is a reality check, and after the unchecked tears in the car, I had to remember to tell God THANK YOU!
I am 34 with no title except for the one I imagine. It’s a great age, a great place to get to know oneself and discover passion. If being let go leads you to a merger of truth, no matter the stage in your life, then I think we owe it to ourselves to embrace it. I’ve discovered that it is always about walking in your truth, because no matter what comes, you can ride the wind without looking at your feet, without feeling abused by outside forces, without sinking into former tendencies, or depression.
You can defy gravity!
Letting go is process. This has been the year for great change, not in the way of the grand gesture, but just a shift in my atmosphere and I knew it, had felt it deep down for the past two years, but only now was it bubbling to the surface where I knew my change was imminent.
Letting go and being let go. One you control the other you don’t. No job owes you anything. Florida is a right-to-work state. Aside from the things that I never should have put off in the first place, like the doctor and the dental visits. In spite of some former skewed priorities I feel blessed to be at this point. I am grateful that those that knew me and had been listening (or even reading) didn’t offer apologies. They would miss a daily presence as I would, but so many said “this is your time T.”
Letting go or being let go means the world at your feet in some sense. BIG TIME OPPORTUNITY!
Danielle LaPorte, author of The Fire Starter Sessions and whose White Hot Truth I devotedly imbibe asked a simply question: How do you want to feel? The stream of consciousness was immediate. I wanted to feel “PASSIONATE, POWERFUL, PRESENT, PRECIOUS, PRAYED-UP/PRAYERFUL.” That’s exactly what I wrote in my journal. The pivotal P’s I call them. That was month’s before being let go.
“The truth is, unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself, unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that that situation is over, you cannot move forward.” — Steve Maraboli, Life, The Truth, and Being Free
Letting go and being let go. Time has marched. I’ve dared myself to move on and create the reality I say I desire. This is a new chapter. This writer-woman is fully engaged.
The featured card-stock above (which I’ve fully embraced in the NOW as my motto and mojo) was created by my friend fellow blogger Mariah Williams. Check out her Etsy shop for this and other sundry delights.
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